One and all I know implore me to stop beratting myself for developing pressure sores. At an intellectual level I know this is good sound advice. The emotional side of my personality however is far less tolerant. I chalk this up to my Irish Catholi upbringing. We Catholics specialize in guilt. Hence I may have left the Church but the Church has not left me. In short no more posting of self recriminations.
I remain medically stable but am in need of a blood transfusion. Debridement of the wound on my left was bloody. I essentially had bed side surgery--the details of which are too unpleasant to detail. I assume with the transfusion I will feel stronger. Today and yesterday my battle is boredom. Internet access remains limited at best. The higlight of my day was a sushi dinner a friend brought to me. Wow, real food. Better yet my brothere stopped by and brought me an ice cold beer. It was the second best beer of my life!
How do I cope with boredom? Lots of bad novels, football on TV, so yes I am desperate. And I long to answer comments many have made but cannot do so. As I said internet is severely limited. Indeed, writing theses words requires much squinting, a crappy key board, and far too smalll TV screen. Boy do I miss a real computer! However even the bad access I have is better than nothing. Okay that's all for now. Thanks for the support and I promise to cease beratting myself. Your words and comments help very much.